Pray History

SOME PEOPLE
REMEMBER GOD WHEN
THEY ARE IN A HOSPITAL
BED



NOT GOD BUT AN IDEA
ABOUT RELINQUISHING
MAYBE



THE NURSE TOLD ME
THAT MORPHINE WOULD
BE JUST LIKE THE FIRST
TIME YOU TRIED
MARIJUANA


SHE HAD HEARD FROM
PATIENTS



SHE HERSELF HAD
NEVER DONE DRUGS



AND NEVER WOULD DO
DRUGS



THEN SHE INJECTED
MORPHINE INTO A BAG
OF CLEAR FLUIDS

DRIPPING INTO
MY ELBOW


I AM HAPPY TO HAVE
HAD A NUMBER OF
SMALL CAMERAS WORK
INSIDE MY ABDOMEN

THERE
AND THAT THE SURGEON
WAS SINGING

SINGING IN THE RAIN


WHILE I WENT UNDER


“I DON’T BELIEVE IN GOD,
BUT I BELIEVE IN PEOPLE
WHO BELIEVE IN GOD”



I TRIED TO HAVE A PAIN
MEDICATION INDUCED
VISION OF AN ANGEL
APPEARING TO ME


BUT I COULDN’T DECIDE
WHAT AN ANGEL WOULD
LOOK LIKE


I KEPT SEEING 70s HAIR
OR MOUNTAINS

WHEN I WOKE UP MY
LIPS HURT


THERE WAS A CAR
CRASH WHEN I GOT TO
THE ER AND EVERYONE
WAS BLEEDING OUT OF
THEIR HEADS


I DON’T KNOW IF I
REMEMBER ANYTHING
ELSE


I GOT TREATED FIRST


MY DAD SAYS IT IS
GOOD TO GO TO ER
BECAUSE THAT’S WHERE REALITY
HAPPENS


PRAYING IS A ROOM
WITH WINDOWS


MY ORGAN
WAS DISCARDED AS
BIOWASTE